they say an end can be a start

Mothers are easy to come by. Anyone can become one of those. Through a mistake or by months to years of planning. But good mothers -- the kind which nurture you through the hard times of childhood and even adulthood -- are difficult to find. There are varying definitions of what makes a mother good, of course, but walking out on your two young children -- one, eight and the other, six -- is nowhere near that definition.

This was Alison Kobelski's earliest memory. Her mother's lips barely grazing her forehead. A smile tugging at the corners of her mouth. "I'm going to the store to get some milk." The front door closing. Just like that. Here one minute, gone the next. Like a magic trick she'd been planning in secret. Now you see her; now you don't.

It was this memory, this moment, that shaped much of her childhood and teenage years. She blamed her father for not being loving enough. She blamed her grandparents for being so hateful. She blamed her brother for being too quiet. She took it out on fellow students in her school. Teased girls who were "beneath" her. Did anything and everything for the approval of another girl in her class. But underneath all of this anger and hatred, she mostly blamed herself. She was too fussy as a child, wasn't she? She still craved the attention of a solid mother figure. It was all she needed to get her through and that left many years before.

Toward the end of high school, she began to come down from the proverbial and superficial high horse she'd been riding since junior high. Though still quick to defend her friends and could easily be seen with a flash fire in her eyes, there was an inexplicable change in her. She was not as nasty to her classmates or her family members. She did not jump at every chance to worship her "leader." The mysterious reason was never revealed, but she knew it was the newly found bond with her brother.

Because obviously her social status was of more importance than her grades to her in high school, she landed herself in community college at first. And due to her lack of focus on her future, she started with her college career with a liberal arts major. Two years of learning and maturing later, Ali graduated with an associate's degree and a plan for where to continue her education. Somewhere between her first and second years, her interest had been piqued by urban planning. So, for four years, she lived in California, studying just that.

But after graduating with her bachelor's, she grew homesick for the hardened ways of east coast. And so back, she came to the streets of New York City. She found herself a craigslist roommate in Bushwick and a job as a dispatcher for a taxi service. She is still going to school, now for her master's in the same major at NYU. Still trying to overcome that one moment but she's made progress thus far.

played by: lily collins journal: alikob contact: ooc post writing: third person, storybook. est scenes: threads preferred but I can do AIM coding © kuerten	a l i s o n Mothers are easy to come by. Anyone can become one of those. Through a mistake or by months to years of planning. But good mothers -- the kind which nurture you through the hard times of childhood and even adulthood -- are difficult to find. There are varying definitions of what makes a mother good, of course, but walking out on your two young children -- one, eight and the other, six -- is nowhere near that definition. This was Alison Kobelski's earliest memory. Her mother's lips barely grazing her forehead. A smile tugging at the corners of her mouth. "I'm going to the store to get some milk." The front door closing. Just like that. Here one minute, gone the next. Like a magic trick she'd been planning in secret. Now you see her; now you don't. It was this memory, this moment, that shaped much of her childhood and teenage years. She blamed her father for not being loving enough. She blamed her grandparents for being so hateful. She blamed her brother for being too quiet. She took it out on fellow students in her school. Teased girls who were "beneath" her. Did anything and everything for the approval of another girl in her class. But underneath all of this anger and hatred, she mostly blamed herself. She was too fussy as a child, wasn't she? She still craved the attention of a solid mother figure. It was all she needed to get her through and that left many years before. Toward the end of high school, she began to come down from the proverbial and superficial high horse she'd been riding since junior high. Though still quick to defend her friends and could easily be seen with a flash fire in her eyes, there was an inexplicable change in her. She was not as nasty to her classmates or her family members. She did not jump at every chance to worship her "leader." The mysterious reason was never revealed, but she knew it was the newly found bond with her brother. Because obviously her social status was of more importance than her grades to her in high school, she landed herself in community college at first. And due to her lack of focus on her future, she started with her college career with a liberal arts major. Two years of learning and maturing later, Ali graduated with an associate's degree and a plan for where to continue her education. Somewhere between her first and second years, her interest had been piqued by urban planning. So, for four years, she lived in California, studying just that. But after graduating with her bachelor's, she grew homesick for the hardened ways of east coast. And so back, she came to the streets of New York City. She found herself a craigslist roommate in Bushwick and a job as a dispatcher for a taxi service. She is still going to school, now for her master's in the same major at NYU. Still trying to overcome that one moment but she's made progress thus far.
nicknames ali, alicat, ~~ninja girl~~, etc. birth date & age April 2, 1989 & 26 place of birth brooklyn, new york current residence bushwick, brooklyn, new york sexual orientation bisexual romantic orientation demiromantic relationship status single occupation dispatcher for YELLOWCABNYCTAXI	education LAGUARDIA COMMUNITY COLLEGE;; LIBERAL ARTS AA: 2006 - 2008 CALPOLY;; BACHELOR OF SCIENCE IN CITY & REGIONL PLANNING: 2009 - 2013 NYU WAGNER;; MASTER OF URBAN PLANNING: CURRENTLY ATTENDING	apartment (two bedroom; shared with Cari